Such a large sea and such a small boat

You ever feel like your hands are tied in most aspects of life?
Well I know I'm supposed to say "well I know I do" but I really don't. Now I don't want to give you the wrong idea, there are some days that I wish things would align and my future be set. For the most part, however, I'm dreaming a lot. Most people might say that dreams are a dime a dozen.
That one is pretty well true. Dreams and ideas don't pay the bills, but that never stopped me.


Some days I want to throw practicality to the wind and just be crazy. I'm not sure that's really my thing though. I'm not really spontaneous, I mean kind of, but not really. Right now I wish that a door would open up so I could work. I miss having some kind of income.

The Indispensable Gospel

In our ever changing world there is a trend in the blending of necessity and want. For instance there are people who complain about not having money and as soon as they get paid they by soda. Now there isn't much bad about soda (not much good either), but, when soda takes place of necessity it shows what kind of value we put on Dr. Pibbster.

A christian might think that he views the gospel as being indispensable and imperative. If he were to closely examine what he considers to be important by the use and thought of the thing, however, he might find that he has lowered the gospel within the secret vessel of his heart.

The Scriptures hold the gospel in the highest regards. There is, without a doubt, and imperativeness to the gospel. The very frame of the Bible rests; not on teaching or correct doctrine - nor is it on the practice and observance of ritual and ordinance, but it is on the Gospel of Jesus Christ.

There are many reasons for this but perhaps the most meaningful to a lost human is sin. We cannot know the full destruction of sin. This we do know that; there is no more a damning and destructive thing than the evil that courses through our veins. The gospel is imperative because it is much needed.

The Gospel is also indispensable because it is the only way. There is no other way to God and redemption outside of the Gospel of Christ. Because our sin nature naturally draws us to setting up some idol or better way this fact is often overlooked. Even in modern evangelical teaching there is an idea that it is by some work of our own that we are redeemed. Some might say that we have set up an ideal of determination or human decision over the work of God.

You know how to whistle dontcha steve?

So I was talking to one of my friends today. Through the course of conversation she mentioned that she was incapable of whistling. I myself can't ride a bike (or at least very well) so I understand her plight.

I was trying to teach my niece how to blow hot air onto a window to draw a smiley face and she couldn't do it. We tried for a while and still no luck. So I told her we would try later. I suppose I never learned to ride a bike because the few time I tried I ended up failing (or in a bush). The key to progressing is to not give up.

A lesson that has become very important to me as of late. It's so easy to get dejected and discouraged when life beats you down. Much like a clever inventor I know you must keep moving forward.

Bored with Politics

*start rant here*

I don't know about you but I'm tired of popular politics. You know the like. Where the politician is more concerned with their autobiography signing dates than they are about the people they serve. What if someone defied the norm? What if someone stood up and said enough is enough - We want politics that serve the public.

We need more people to direct their attention to farmers and local communities. We have plenty of people working on the national defecate and the economy crunch.

*end rant here*

BTW Tailor swift got owned.

Your boy is moving back to Oklahoma on Wednesday. Look out cause here I come. Yeah I know what you're thinking "How will Granite survive without you?" The answer is frankly 'I don't know' but I'm sure it will.

The Holy Anguish

Why should a man bow during prayer? Should he be brought to his knees in deep solemn reverence? Would he fall to them in a terror of a Holy God? I find, more often or not, that a true and penitent Christian is brought to his knees by the crippling anguish of his own estate.

At times I find myself bowing in reverence because when I was young I was taught to bow. As I grow closer to God I am cast on my knees not out of reverence, nor by fear, rather I am thrown to the threshing floor because of my distress.

It's not like me to post something this close to my heart, I don't know if anyone will read this but I feel as though I need to say it. There is a great deal of desperation in my soul as of late. I must be different. I must be changed. I must leave this flesh behind me. There have been long hours for me in pain and agony over how much work there is to be done.

David, why are you saying all of this? I don't know - but what I do know is that In my despair I am given strength. Maybe I'm supposed to convey that in my agonizing for holiness and change I find energy. Maybe I am simply supposed to challenge people. It is not good for a writer to simply write without objective, but I do because I want to share who I am. I am a worthless sinner who is no more worthy to be called a son of God than a rock - I am however a son of God because Christ has made me to be. I anguish over the sin that crops up in my live (or at sometime has taken residency), but I rise in the righteousness of Christ. I anguish over the hellish and Godforsaken estate of the world, but I rise in the Hope of Christ.

Holy Fire will create Holy Anguish. Pray for revival only if you're willing to suffer for it.

Save Money, Live Better, Die Cheaper

Ok so walmart.com has caskets for sale. That is not a edited link.

Wow it's been a while, I know, but I'm updating in under a month I'm doing better than a lot of people. But I have some news: I'm moving back to Oklahoma on the eighteenth of November. My plan is move in with my parents earn some money by working for the Mafia and then using the money to go to school.

I've been learning some blues riffs on a piano which has been fun - I also had someone give me a guitar! But I started a new project. Before Rich Mullins died he wrote an album that was simple ten songs about Jesus I am working on the same project. There is nothing better to write about!

I'm gonna miss Illinois and my nieces and nephew, my sisters and brother in law. But it was a fun two months.

Krispy Kreme

So I went to Krispy Kreme tonight: My sister bought me coffee.

If you like coffee go to Krispy Kreme, it's fantastic. I like it a lot.

I've started reading a new book called: God, as He longs for you to see Him. It's by Chip Ingram. So far I love it. It's not as theologically challenging as other books but it is insightful and it keeps my attention.

The premise of the book is to change our worldly view of God to a biblical one. We will be using this book in our college ministry and I'm excited to see what glory of God will unfold from this study. There is one thing that is unattainable in my estimation and that is a perfect knowledge of God. This, however, challenges me to know what I can. For the most important thing about our lives is not about missions, or people, or even reaching the lost. The most important part of our lives should be seeking out the far reach of our God's love, it should be the searching for His glory, and with that comes planting the flag of Zion on the hills of this world to proclaim how great a God we have.

Flood run for your umbrella!

It's way raining right now. Like pouring - like the flood gates of heaven opened wide and the earth was covered in the drink of our atmospheric locker.

Ok so my older sister's birthday was last week, this week it's my younger sisters. I swear, I want it to be my birthday so I can get presents! Any body who wants to get me a present early is more than welcome! Those of you who like sewing things I've got this idea for you - A candy corn beanie -not made of, but looks like. I know it's genius.

I carved a mini pumpkin - It's pikachu. Yes I am that awesome.

I got to teach last night at church for the adults. I taught on the signs of our salvation. I used Romans chapter 8.

My noggin hurts!

So you ever feel like you sinus cavity is filling up like a water balloon? Like maybe it is leading to an imminent explosion of snotty proportions? If not; then you my friend are lucky. I am, however, not so lucky. In fact between my eyes watering and the impending doom of my sinus cavities I haven’t been able to see for the past couple of days.

Anyways, God gave me some great encouragement today. You may be saying “David, God is too important to stoop down and give you some encouragement just because you have a cold.” I disagree I’m God’s little kid, when I’m not feeling well, He wants me to feel better. God is a nurturing God.

Anyways I was having a rough day, and I stumbled across a book by Matt Redman called the Unquenchable Worshipper. I learned something great today, when you’re being crushed, and you are hurting look at God. Don’t look to God in hopes that He will heal you, but look at Him. I promise you when you see God’s glory you realize how insignificant your worries are. “Turn you eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face, and the things of earth will grow strangely dim in the light of His glory and grace.

What do you want to see?

So you know how I often post funny things? Well tonight expect nothing of the sort. God had a heart to heart with me today when I was reading one of my favorite passages (Matthew 5). His word says this "Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God." You may be thinking "David I'm not seeing the problem here." Let me spell it out for you, my heart is the filthiest thing about me.

If you think your heart isn't that bad let me give you this: think of everything you've thought in your heart, every profane word, every lust, every twisted desire, all your hate, the things you've said and purposed and you've kept inside. Now, If I could blog, in detail, every one of those things and show the world your wickedness, what would you say? Before the eyes of God the blackness of our sins stands as a putrid testimony to who we really are.

So the problem is this: my heart is far from pure.

Some of the theologians are going to be disappointed in me, I do not intend to exegete the deepness of the doctrine of Christ's propitiation. I have been studying the cross lately and of this fact I am well aware and have been brought to my knees in praise, terror and humility because of it.

What I do intend to do is ask this question: What do you want to see? I was given a thread of hope in this, although I am faced with the disgusting sight of my sin, I still desire God. I still want to see God.

Repentance is relinquishing the things of the flesh (the desires of our lust driven and self driven heart) and grasping onto the desire for God (that He might be lifted up in our inabilities). This sheer thread of hope becomes the binding chords of joy; because in my evilness I must rely solely on the grace of God. By the blood of Christ can my heart be made pure!

Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God! Double blessings, because it is God who makes the door, opens the door, and carries us through! There is something said about a prodigal that would walk home on his own two feet. I am much like a prodigal described by C.S. Lewis " who is brought in kicking,struggling, resentful, and darting his eyes in every direction for a chance of
escape"!